Backs~!!! *RoarS*

Yes, folks! After being laid down by a fever ( which hit 40 once and made me tink tat my brain was going to be fried to a crisp) (yes, I do agree with all of u dear frens out there its probably retribution for my evil deeds:P) that lasted for the past 3 days, I finally feel decent enough to even think and blog~! It seems that many people have been falling sick after the memorial.. sigh, overworked, all of us r.

Temp is more or less stable now, juz slighter higher than normal. Keeping my fingers crossed, all should be well by tmr. So sorries to all the frens whom i had to cancel on :(

If everything goes according to plan and I recover tmr, then its time to finally start to set out what I was planning to do all along for this hols.
Regarding this: I will never give up. Impossible is nothing.

For another matter, its not fated. Just let things be. I have already given up.

Random

Positive thoughts loom
Lets try to end this with a boom

I realised that whatever i try to do like studying etc, theres a huge inertia.
Bah.
Oh well, things can only get better, can they?

Its comforting to know that when u have hit rock bottom
the only way u can go is up.

Oh yah, thank U, divine being up there, for being fair.

Chase

The chase is finallie on
The timer started long ago
It might be too late
to tink of reaching the gate
However, to give up now
would be exiting without a bow
I refuse to admit that I will lose
Afterall, most of them r juz full of booze
Im not going down without a fight
Afterall, thats the only way that is right.

The person in front of u is there to be overtaken.

Its over

Its finally over. I feel extremely tired as if I have been running on pure adrenaline for the past few mths.
I think I will reallie miss the volleyball trainings, friendlies, suppers and teammates that have become such an integral part of my life.
3 mths ago, if U had told me I would be playing volleyball with such passion again, I would probably have laughed at U right in ur face.
After army, all I wanted to do was concentrate on my studies and coach volleyball. As far as I was concerned, my competitive volleyball days had already ended.
Somewhere along the line, somehow, I got carried away into the tide by some of ur passion.
People like sj , kenneth and ky... pple who reallie appreciated and loved the game... pple whom i grew to love playing the game with.. pple i spent lots of time with inside the squash courts:P
I must have spent countless hours msning with SJ online abt tactics and everything else online.
U r a great capt. Without U, we could never have made it this far.
Ky spent countless hours teaching me the game.
A great player, whom without I could never have improved to such an extent.
All the rest, for all those who spent countless hours toking abt vball over meals ... I will always treasure all those memories.
For pple like koks, sweewei.. who gave in to my forceful demands to go train at weird hours with me, thank U.
For pple like kuoting, roger, gerad, kristian and kenneth, thanks for being always so encouraging and such a stabilising influence.

Beyond all odds, we made it to our goal of the finals. Regrettably, we were lacklustre in the finals.
But that doesnt change anything. The process was still beautiful.
Theres always next yr:)

Thanks to peeps like mabes, rich, manthu and joel for coming down to support.
Im sorrie u all had to put up with such a bad game.

Alrites. Tats abt it, I guess.
Time to catch up with all those darn readings:)

The end of the journey

Looking back on the past 2 mths of arduous trainings almost everyday, it almost seems like its been a dream.
Im behind.. very behind in my work. But i will never regret this choice to have gone all out for it. The adrenaline, passion and emotional rush of what happened against KR on wednesday can never be replaced.
No matter what the result tmr, Im glad to have been there.
We will see this journey thru to the very end.
Of all pple, i trust U.
:)

On an entirely different note,
Im sorrie tat it turned out to be this way.
Maybe im juz mean. Im tired.
Everytime it turns out to be this way. Everytime I turn out to be disappointed or angry.
Everytime I end up feeling bad and guilty.
I dun want U to be torn btwn him and us. I reallie dun.
But ask again, since when have U been torn? U have never chosen us, never once chosen us in favour of him.
Im sorries. Perhaps Im childish but i feel i deserve an apology as well.
It doesnt mean that juz becos i give in everytime, I feel entirely at ease abt it.
I reallie dunnoe wat to do animore.