Dust

The dust has been swept under the carpet
never to see the light of day again.
Out of sight, out of mind.
Non-appearance is equivalent to non-existence.

If it comes to u, it comes to u.
Dun run, dun deny, dun avoid.
Nonchalant u may be,
but nonchalance is only u.
Responsibility sucks i know.
Its just too bad, little punk.
Face your fears.
Choose wisely.
Denial is futile.
Look beyond yourself.
Wholeness is a front.
Whole u may be,
yet emptiness surrounds u.
Great your charm is,
greater ur responsibility.
Learn to cherish the chance,
go into the dance.
Be somebody.
It takes more than one U to make U.

Words

Nonchalance
Exhaustion
Determination
Contentment
Happiness
Gratitude
Fearlessness
Carefree
Responsibility

These things juz dun mix do they?

Bored yet again.

Yeah, its tat time of the day again.. where im bored and totally dun feel like doing anithing. Therefore Im blogging again. Dun worry, guys, I guarantee this frequency will die down real soon and u wun be reading ani more meaningless posts animore ( though i doubt any post of mine will be meaningful:P)
An extremely slack and uneventful day. After slacking for the whole of yesterday after the sls exam, I feel like i never want to study again. Wait... I never wanted to study.. hmm I guess I mean it as in I cant c myself studying again:P Oh well, im making myself more confused. Whatever~
Aniway, got up, watched scv like crazy .... soap operas, bball, u name it.
From 10 am to 2 pm, my eyes were riverted to the tv. Sigh, this is the effect of being deprived of scv after staying hall for too long.
Finallie, i dragged myself up from my cosy couch, gave my dog a pet and made my way back to NUS. Met Manthu at Munchie Monkeys and attempted to study for a couple of hrs. Note the key word attempted. Oh well, Sam, this reminds me of the hcjc days where we would try to study but never ever really succeeded. Despite our past history, I still blame today's failure on the basis that we had too much to tok about after not meeting up for so long. (oh well, im trying to push aside the issues of slackness, lack of focus here) (And how do u ever manage to study at that place when u noe everyone?????? lol) [on a sidenote, yes, the feeling is mutual and u r one of the closest frens i will ever have as well :) ] (P.S. Therefore i dun c U in dec during lidome, i will murder u:P)
Great to c u so happy and i hope u get some "exercise" done tonight. *ahems*

Right now, im torn. I feel like going to bed but yet i want to watch Tv. However, I know i should be studying. This is crap. Sigh. There r just too mani things to do in life:P

Oh well, whatever choice i make, i need to make it fast and stop staring at this blogging screen:P
Bah wigan is down 2-3 to Arsenal after 63 mins.

Oh well, whatever divine being out there, u need to put in more divine intervention to get me to study instead of just spoiling my phone, my area reception and my sim card. sigh.

Off now as the bed beckons to me. Bet u all knew this was coming din u? Ciao~

This is regrettable indeed.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, ur resident devil a.k.a mr longjinisevil here.. has finallie decided to get a blog~!~! Its been done in a moment of folly and chances are... knowing how lazy and bz i am... that it will fall into a state of disrepair soon due to the lack of posts. However, till then, we will have many evil bitching days to go~! Let us enjoy the err.. good times.. while they last!
A highly eventful day indeed.. Went to watch harry potter at PS after finishing the dumb sls exam. It was greatly disappointing and I really have to say this.. what a waste of my time and money. Dumbledore is supposed to be dignified... not fearful or gan chiong... kauz.. many other complaints as well.. but really cant be bothered to go into them. All I have to say is if u r a true fan of Harry Potter... (not like Rich who doesnt even noe Hagrid's name amd claims that he is a true fan *smirks*), brace urself.
Sigh, i dunnoe if this applies to everyone but whenever i try to study for the exams these day, various thoughts flash thru my mind, distracting me from the task at hand. These r tough times indeed.. times when i really envy many people out there who r disciplined, motivated and focused enough to keep on studying.
Perhaps the only way i can really get my mind down to studying is to change my focus on life completely. To be more focused, more serious and to totally put 100 percent into every single thing. But.. im lazy or im weak... whichever way u choose to view it, it juz doesnt strike me as the way i wanna live my life. Wats the pt of outdoing others? Wats the pt of seeking glory and affirmation? I agree that affirmation is positive and good for people but is it reallie needeD?
Hell, u can thrash me in anithing for all i care... unless u piss me off. I dun deny that with one single exception, I 've never tried my best.
The point is where does all this focus take us? Is it the end result that satisfies us? Or is the process much more important? Does the end result define who u r? If u were to judge people by their end results, oh well i reserve judgment on that issue. Maybe, Im just making excuses for myself though, trying to justify my under productivity and my ineffectiveness.
If u reallie want something, do u go all out for it? Or do u stick to the argument of what is urs will definitely be urs? Sigh.. okies.. all these is utter tosh. I have no idea what im blogging manz.. indeed im alreadie losing motivation to blog:P
To end off though, a quote i heard somewhere... everybody deserves a 2nd chance but not necessarily everyone will get it. My thought: If there is no tomorrow for me, that makes me a dangerous person indeed :PP
If u have read all the way until the end of this post, I thank u sincerely from the bottom of my heart for being one of the following : 1.) a patient fren who is trying to make sense of my ramblings, 2.) juz a very kaypoh person, 3.) juz a very bored person. However, at the risk of defaming myself, I would advise u to seek medical attention immediately as u r either suffering from a serious psychiatric condition or are probably about to suffer one due to nervous shock. :P
Till the next post if u r still mentally sound~!