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Leicester

2007-09-29T04:41:00.000-07:00

Pictures of my room in leicester. Pls ignore the mess. Its cos these pics were frm when i first moved in. Actualli, ermm its not much better now..

When u first walk in the door. Wadrobe on ur right. Chest of drawers on ur left.

My bed, a board for me to pin stuff on and a small open cabinet

View from the window. Facing the dorr.

My wadrobe. The grey door is the toliet.

My small cosy shower. The water is not very warm..

More pics of the toliet.

Yep its small but cosy and pretty much self contained. Its like a prison i feel. Everything plastic and squashed. Haha but dun misunderstand, I love this! :)

London

2007-09-29T04:23:00.000-07:00

As promised, Here are some pics. First up, London!

An amazing sweets shop which sells everything! woohoo!

Chinatown. The roast duck looks not bad.

Just found this amusing. (:

First plate of fish and chips! For abt 4 pounds. Ex and the fish isnt tat BIG. And they have every kind of sauce from mayo to tomato to mint sauce.. but they dun have freaking chilli!!! The fries r like huge slabs of potato. They are a lot bigger than they look.

Above is the London Eye, the one that yes Singapore is trying to imitate by building and no, i din go on it cos its freaking ex.

Tats it for now. Its sure a pain uploading pics.

London

2007-09-23T04:32:00.000-07:00

im back! I realise this blog has not been updated for JUST a little while. *ahem*

To keep all of u updated, if anyone actualli bothers to read this, I shall ATTEMPT to blog more often.

Been in london since tuesday as all of u probably noe.
Been living out of a suitcase which is killing me since i wanna unpack and juz settle down somewhere.

Although I noe tmr is gonna kill me, considering the ride to heathrow, then to london central and to leicester, with my countless luggage, but strangely enuff, I look forward to this time tmr, at the end of the day where i SHOULD be settled into my new accomodation, or least in my new room. Lol.

Londons been awesome since I came. First 2 days were quite cold but i adjusted, acclimatised and got used to it. Most of u have probably heard of how i love the cool weather and the modern yet old skool feel around.

Been all around, shopping at oxford street, eating at chinatown, sightseeing at soho and all.

However, theres a downside to London and tat is its jzu too freaking crowded lah.
Post office hrs and saturdays, the streets are more crowded than Orchard than on a sunday.

Hence, Im glad Im going to leicester, lonely as it might be. Its probably quieter and less crowded. The solitude sould suit me fine, though of cos when i get Bored, I could juz pop down for a weekend trip to london. Besides, travelling around london is just too ex. Imagine 4 pounds for a metro ride from one zone to another (tats like 12 sing bucks and I will never complain that the Singapore mrt is too expensive again!)

For those who are crying out for pics, let it be known that the camera cable is somewhere embedded deep inside my luggage and hence no pics until I get to leicester (and settle down).

I'll try to upload them here. If it takes too long, ermm maybe facebook. If its still very long, errr oh well
hahaa

take care folks!

2007-05-14T09:40:00.000-07:00

The rays of dusk fall slowly over the path ahead
Darkness appears to beckon
A pale shadow of the former man he once was
Once bathing brightly in the rays of the daylight
Now weathered, withered and weakened
Broken, torn and afraid
And above all his fear of the dark
Yet a faint glimmer of light shines somewhere beyond
Perhaps Darkness ignites not fear
With courage, will and heart
Illumination will resound brightly forever.

afternoon

2007-01-09T03:11:00.000-08:00

After missing my lecture this morning, I decided i should not waste the afternoon.
So instead of reading up as I should have, I went to lot 1 to catch Night at the Museum.
It was pretty funny but mark my words onli worth 6.50.
U would be better off downloading it though.
Anyway, yes i went alone.
It was on a moment impulse cos i was so bored walking around aniway.
An interesting thing happened when i sat down in my seat A-11 (sets in A numbered frm 1 to 14).
The gers around the centre of row A (prob abt 6 and 7) took one look, whispered to each other, glanced at me fearfully again and shifted to A3 and A4 respectively.
Behold! Terrifying and psychotic looking me.
... and all I did was just to sit down.
Anyhow, bought a new school bag after that.
Turning into a shopaholic who cant resist a good deal.
P.S. Especially stuff on discount.

2007-01-08T20:48:00.000-08:00

The alarm spoilt.
I woke up to grey skies, thinking that it was about 8 am, but discovered to my shock that it was actually 1045am.
So, i skipped the 2nd lect of the sem on the 2nd day of the sem.
Rats, not exactly a very good start to the sem, is it.
Considering how i went to bed abt 12ish, wanting to get 8 hrs of sleep.
Extremely irritated.
BAH

2007-01-08T08:43:00.000-08:00

first day of school
and i muz say i find equity reallie quite boring.
though it reallie seems like last sem with crownie's sense of humour - his interesting jokes - and tang - syllabus isnt up yet. -_-'
feel a great inertia particularly since i dun tink i will like the modules for this sem.
sigh.
oh well life goes on and i NOE I WILL GROW TO LOVE THEM!
*growls*

back!

2007-01-06T11:04:00.000-08:00

folks, so its the new year and yeah, i have decided to revive this blog slightly.
Hope u will be seeing more regular posts from now on.
*though i seriously doubt so*

2006-07-22T03:42:00.000-07:00

i wanna lie on the grass and watch the clouds drift past aimlessly.
i wanna lie on the sand and watch the stars in the dark blue sky.
i long to be free like the clouds and glitter like the stars.
this might no longer be possible.
but who noes?
Maybe this is the future.

2006-06-17T04:06:00.000-07:00

Hit low and stopped during the race
Just as I was about to hit a brace
There will be no lasting grace
Shall vanish without a trace.

Karma once again

2006-06-13T11:32:00.000-07:00

I remember vividly in my teenage years which seem so long ago,
that i happily rejoiced over the fact that I had no pimples despite my apparent lack of skin care.
I even proclaimed to my sis that using soap to wash my face was all it needed.
Now im currently 22 and im breaking out like an adolescent.
Oh just disfigure me.
BAH

Karma

2006-06-01T11:29:00.000-07:00

Its true what they say about karma.
Ur evil deeds always catch up with U.
Oh well
I'll c u in hell, old fren.
Lol

2006-04-27T07:25:00.000-07:00

Some pple are just not worth ur time and effort.
Im sorry i even or ever bothered.
U have nothing else to do with me.

2006-04-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

Saw a post on someone's blog about being in year 1 next yr...
considering her superb grade for torts, i highly doubt so..
However... it is a great possibility for me.
Hope's not lost yet though
3 days is a lifetime.

The 4 step guide to studying

2006-04-10T11:22:00.002-07:00

Well, ladies and gentlemen, I embarked on my mugging mission today (when i realised to my horror that there are only 2 weeks left to exams), note that the key word is mugging and not revision, because Im reading most stuff for the first time ever. Sigh.

1st step: I woke up all chirpy and raring to go. I took out my notes and started to read. (note: It was a bad choice to start with legal T.) At this point, material was going into my dormant brain readily.

2nd step: After 1 hr, I decided to troop off to lunch. Upon coming back, I started to fall asleep on my desk as I read thru Legal T. Note: Since i was falling asleep, i was really not absorbing anything.

3rd step: I washed my face and continued reading. However, due to my utter boredom, the words just came crashing into my face and swirled around my head. This continued till dinner time. Note: I merely read without understanding or knowing what I really read.

4th step: After dinner, realised that there was still a lot left of that stack of notes to read. Hence, i flew through the stack by speed-reading. Note: I no longer cared whether I understood or not. I was just so sian that I just wanted to finish the darn thing and get it over with.

Im screwed. Its true.

2006-04-07T09:12:00.000-07:00

I know all of u are tired
I know all of u are hurt
I wish I could say something classy and inspirational,
but that just wouldnt be our style.
Pain heals, Chicks dig scars
Glory lasts forever.

2006-03-30T13:07:00.000-08:00

It took a long time coming, but better late than never.
My eternal gratitude, divine being.
It might be too late but we never know, do we?
There is still the slightest possibility it will all work out.
3 weeks to judgment day.
4 weeks to freedom.

Resignation

2006-03-28T23:11:00.000-08:00

This is it.
Im not fated to sleep more than 4 hrs every night.
The path has been laid out for me.
Its called study at night, sleep whole afternoon away.
Yesterday, I was carrying out my grand plan to do with away with naps and sleep an average of 6 hrs per day.
Hence, I happily popped into bed at 430 am.
I woke up at 530 am frantically scratching, i had 8 mosquito bites.. kauz
The last time i looked at the clock before i fell asleep, it was 630 am.
and i woke up at 10 am btw.
Probably a divine being sent the mozzie to tell me not to bother.
BAHZ

2006-03-26T12:36:00.000-08:00

If u believe in me, I will never let any rain fall in this world.

How apt.

Inspired

2006-03-20T08:04:00.000-08:00

It was an impulsive buy.
Though it was $6.37, there was no need at all to spend it.
But for the inspiration that it provided, yes... Im so glad i got it early!
Toya Takashina, rock on!

Back temporarily

2006-03-14T02:52:00.000-08:00

*Blows dust off blog*

Yeah, I juz kinda realised I havent been here for sometime:)
Well, its down to the last 1 mth plus of school and its getting kinda hectic.
With moots and the exams looming, its no wonder people are starting to panic.
I realised tat for every single module, I'm screwed.
Contract, with Chin TY, I believe I dun need to explain animore.
Criminal, with Hor, moving on.
Legal T, closed book and of cos I totally dunnoe wat is going on.
Lawr has always been a disaster and Im convinced its not going to be any different this time.
Well, one mth to salvage this wreck of a sem. My dear brain, could u function a lot faster and absorb faster and concentrate longer? Haiz.

Its not over yet.

2006-03-12T11:49:00.000-08:00

Wounds heal but Scars are everlasting.

Backs~!!! RoarS

2006-02-21T06:06:00.000-08:00

Yes, folks! After being laid down by a fever ( which hit 40 once and made me tink tat my brain was going to be fried to a crisp) (yes, I do agree with all of u dear frens out there its probably retribution for my evil deeds:P) that lasted for the past 3 days, I finally feel decent enough to even think and blog~! It seems that many people have been falling sick after the memorial.. sigh, overworked, all of us r.

Temp is more or less stable now, juz slighter higher than normal. Keeping my fingers crossed, all should be well by tmr. So sorries to all the frens whom i had to cancel on :(

If everything goes according to plan and I recover tmr, then its time to finally start to set out what I was planning to do all along for this hols.
Regarding this: I will never give up. Impossible is nothing.

For another matter, its not fated. Just let things be. I have already given up.

Random

2006-02-12T03:30:00.000-08:00

Positive thoughts loom
Lets try to end this with a boom

I realised that whatever i try to do like studying etc, theres a huge inertia.
Bah.
Oh well, things can only get better, can they?

Its comforting to know that when u have hit rock bottom
the only way u can go is up.

Oh yah, thank U, divine being up there, for being fair.

Chase

2006-02-06T10:52:00.000-08:00

The chase is finallie on
The timer started long ago
It might be too late
to tink of reaching the gate
However, to give up now
would be exiting without a bow
I refuse to admit that I will lose
Afterall, most of them r juz full of booze
Im not going down without a fight
Afterall, thats the only way that is right.

The person in front of u is there to be overtaken.

Its over

2006-02-03T20:44:00.000-08:00

Its finally over. I feel extremely tired as if I have been running on pure adrenaline for the past few mths.
I think I will reallie miss the volleyball trainings, friendlies, suppers and teammates that have become such an integral part of my life.
3 mths ago, if U had told me I would be playing volleyball with such passion again, I would probably have laughed at U right in ur face.
After army, all I wanted to do was concentrate on my studies and coach volleyball. As far as I was concerned, my competitive volleyball days had already ended.
Somewhere along the line, somehow, I got carried away into the tide by some of ur passion.
People like sj , kenneth and ky... pple who reallie appreciated and loved the game... pple whom i grew to love playing the game with.. pple i spent lots of time with inside the squash courts:P
I must have spent countless hours msning with SJ online abt tactics and everything else online.
U r a great capt. Without U, we could never have made it this far.
Ky spent countless hours teaching me the game.
A great player, whom without I could never have improved to such an extent.
All the rest, for all those who spent countless hours toking abt vball over meals ... I will always treasure all those memories.
For pple like koks, sweewei.. who gave in to my forceful demands to go train at weird hours with me, thank U.
For pple like kuoting, roger, gerad, kristian and kenneth, thanks for being always so encouraging and such a stabilising influence.

Beyond all odds, we made it to our goal of the finals. Regrettably, we were lacklustre in the finals.
But that doesnt change anything. The process was still beautiful.
Theres always next yr:)

Thanks to peeps like mabes, rich, manthu and joel for coming down to support.
Im sorrie u all had to put up with such a bad game.

Alrites. Tats abt it, I guess.
Time to catch up with all those darn readings:)

The end of the journey

2006-02-02T10:35:00.000-08:00

Looking back on the past 2 mths of arduous trainings almost everyday, it almost seems like its been a dream.
Im behind.. very behind in my work. But i will never regret this choice to have gone all out for it. The adrenaline, passion and emotional rush of what happened against KR on wednesday can never be replaced.
No matter what the result tmr, Im glad to have been there.
We will see this journey thru to the very end.
Of all pple, i trust U.
:)

On an entirely different note,
Im sorrie tat it turned out to be this way.
Maybe im juz mean. Im tired.
Everytime it turns out to be this way. Everytime I turn out to be disappointed or angry.
Everytime I end up feeling bad and guilty.
I dun want U to be torn btwn him and us. I reallie dun.
But ask again, since when have U been torn? U have never chosen us, never once chosen us in favour of him.
Im sorries. Perhaps Im childish but i feel i deserve an apology as well.
It doesnt mean that juz becos i give in everytime, I feel entirely at ease abt it.
I reallie dunnoe wat to do animore.

:)

2006-01-31T08:38:00.000-08:00

A long day with grey skies await tmr evening.
If it doesnt work out, im going to get drunk.
If it does work out, i might just go get drunk anyway.
Lol.
Nothing is over until the final whistle.
I have faith, do u?

R.I.P

2006-01-28T10:11:00.000-08:00

R.I.P .... tats wat i say abt my memo reallie.. considering i wrote it in less than a day... i would seriously be over the moon with a big fat C... anithing to stop a potential D coming along..

However, many thanks to everyone for their help`!!! Nadia, Dawn, Jo, CY, u guys totally rock~!
Mabel, Wanjing and Rich(especially), thanks for the citation help.. considering i din bring my carswell home.. LoL

Its been a long and bumpy ride.
Im juz flowing along with the tide.
Light isnt just at the end of the tunnel
It emits from water droplets in the funnel
I tink the end is in sight
yet I dun wanna be right
The process was painstaking
But the result is breathtaking
Trying my best
Eventually i will do something about the rest.

happi Cny folks~!

First day of school

2006-01-09T02:24:00.000-08:00

I met my first day of school wtih terrible foreboding. Pre school and pre monday blues sunk in as i approached Lt15 for my first lecture of the day. Oh well now it has all ended and it didnt turn out to be tat bad at all~! After a first boring and useless lecture, a new lecture with a nice lecturer with an amazingly good memory or too much free time, a tutorial which surprisingly despite being assigned tons of work was rather relaxed and finallie a boring old computer lesson.
Now im stuck in a Geo soc meeting. Oh well.. one cant ask for too much :P
On the plus note, it was great to meet mani frens after such a long time. And yes i guess school does keep u from becoming too lazy and slack. Sigh...First 2 mths r going to be crazy with coaching, interhall games and trainings and law work as well. Ah.. shall take it one day at a time as it comes along.
Its 110 days towards a well deserved 3 mths break. Alrites~! 1 day down and 109 days to go~

Exasperation

2005-12-30T21:25:00.000-08:00

*rolls eyes* Somtimes I juz feel its damn unfair. U make it sound as though we r the bad guys here who dun value u as a fren and hence sometimes "conveniently" fail to ask u out whenever we go out together. This is juz damn annoying. U told me that U were unhappy the first few times but then U got used to it.
I wonder how would U feel if everytime u asked a fren out, the fren rejects U on one basis or another? Actualli, its onli 2 diff reasons, either one of which everytime. One being u have to accompany ur stead. Two, U dun like our choice of activity. Different people have different priorities in life. Yeah, I dun pretend to understand y u choose to be completely obessed with one priority at the expense of the others but I respect ur choice and value judgment.
Well, every choice that u make has consequences. U cant put all ur tender loving care into taking care of one plant and making it bloom... while leaving another plant alone and expect that plant to be blooming by itself when u have the that once in a blue moon moment to turn to it.
True, sometimes its our fault that we forget to ask you. But there r mani instances where we alreadie noe U r not available. At the risk of making excuses, I would tell u how disheartening it is to be told time and again u r unavailable for our little gatherings. Pls pause and ask urself this qn. Of all the gatherings that we did ask U to come along, how mani have u gone for? Then ask yourself, how mani did u not go for?
Have u ever thot of going along for one activity becos U enjoy our company even though U din like the choice of activity? Its tough to find different activities each time to please everyone.
I guess what I m reallie trying to say is that there is no free lunch in this world. Everyone needs to put in effort in order to make this frenship work.
Okies, i end my rantings here.

Word again

2005-12-22T09:14:00.000-08:00

The room was cold.
Yet it was incomparable to the icy feeling in his heart.
He was alive, was he?
His eyes were riverted, he couldnt tear his eyes away.
Never had he known such loss, he hoped never again to noe such pain.
The face that had smiled at him over the years would smile no longer.
The body that had protected him over the years was forever immobilised.
A pale shadow of his former self he was, yet he would never be viewed as any different.
He yearned to look upon that face forever, yet he knew it was no longer possible.
She wept beside him but strangely enuff, he refused to.
Death had come unwelcome perhaps but undoubtedly for the best.
Life had inflicted much pain and suffering but it had finally ended.
Weeping wasnt about the strong or the weak.
Was it reallie necessary?
He smiled at all the eternal memories that he would forever cherish.
He would remember him in the way he should be.
The memory would forever be etched in his mind and heart.
A great heart and a bright smile.

2005-12-18T04:05:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time since i blogged man. Sigh lazy to even type rubbish. Anyway, since i promised someone that i would blog, here i am~! The hols r reallie flying past... it seems to have barely started but yet half the hols r gone. B4 I know it, it will probably be back to the books again. Sigh.
The hols have been fulfilling. Met up with many frens and planning to meet up many more. How i wish i could savour this freedom forever. Oh well i suppose this freedom is more valuable since it is so limited.
An update on what I have been doing. Watched Narnia and King Kong. Narnia was more touching i suppose but it din reallie live up to the book. King Kong has a lousy plot( i mean wat else do u expect frm King Kong?) but great effects and motion scenes - plus its a steal at 186 mins:P
Been planning to do some shopping but never can seem to get down to it with all the christmas crowds around. Dunch reallie feel like jostling and squeezing with other pple.
Trainings have been limited due to my fractured ankle.. im more of there for moral support since i cant reallie train. A quick summary of my past week... mahjong, badminton, tennis, supper at geylang, training, town, dinner at queenstown, Malaysia :)
Im reallie grateful to those who have been around for me forever. Its a great feeling to noe tat i can always rely on all of u. The one who toked to me for ages at the bottom of my flat after driving me home, the one who always passes notes to me and keeps lazy old me from procrastinating, the one whom i have played vball with for ages with and hang out with often, the kokster ones that i always play bball with and go out gai gai-ing with, the one who is always concerned and ready to listen to my complaints and grumbles, the one who is abroad but yet I remain in close contact with, the one whom i always hit the gym and pool with (congrats on ur new founded happiness!), the one who accompanied me to get my passport done and ended up waiting for a damn long time =p
Thank U.

2005-12-05T10:48:00.000-08:00

Its been 3 days since the exams ended and i feel.. Empty. Its amazing reallie. During the monotonous preparation leading to the exams, I often fantastied about how happy and excited I would be after they were over. Although this would probably shock people, yes, Life feels empty without the constant thought of work and exams. Im not saying tat I mug a lot but at the least, it was hovering in the background - something that u eventually had to get down to in the end.
Yes, whenever I wake up and realise to my horror *yah rite* I have the whole day to myself, I feel totally lost.
This is so totally my fault. I should have arranged many activities beforehand like so many of my frens instead of starting to arrange onli after exams finish. Bah. With trainings, coachings and work coming up, its a big question mark whether I will have time to go out eventually.
Grr.. I need to get drunk. I need to get a life:P

Dust

2005-11-28T01:04:00.000-08:00

The dust has been swept under the carpet
never to see the light of day again.
Out of sight, out of mind.
Non-appearance is equivalent to non-existence.

2005-11-26T13:32:00.000-08:00

If it comes to u, it comes to u.
Dun run, dun deny, dun avoid.
Nonchalant u may be,
but nonchalance is only u.
Responsibility sucks i know.
Its just too bad, little punk.
Face your fears.
Choose wisely.
Denial is futile.
Look beyond yourself.
Wholeness is a front.
Whole u may be,
yet emptiness surrounds u.
Great your charm is,
greater ur responsibility.
Learn to cherish the chance,
go into the dance.
Be somebody.
It takes more than one U to make U.

Words

2005-11-25T06:43:00.000-08:00

Nonchalance
Exhaustion
Determination
Contentment
Happiness
Gratitude
Fearlessness
Carefree
Responsibility

These things juz dun mix do they?

Bored yet again.

2005-11-19T05:56:00.000-08:00

Yeah, its tat time of the day again.. where im bored and totally dun feel like doing anithing. Therefore Im blogging again. Dun worry, guys, I guarantee this frequency will die down real soon and u wun be reading ani more meaningless posts animore ( though i doubt any post of mine will be meaningful:P)
An extremely slack and uneventful day. After slacking for the whole of yesterday after the sls exam, I feel like i never want to study again. Wait... I never wanted to study.. hmm I guess I mean it as in I cant c myself studying again:P Oh well, im making myself more confused. Whatever~
Aniway, got up, watched scv like crazy .... soap operas, bball, u name it.
From 10 am to 2 pm, my eyes were riverted to the tv. Sigh, this is the effect of being deprived of scv after staying hall for too long.
Finallie, i dragged myself up from my cosy couch, gave my dog a pet and made my way back to NUS. Met Manthu at Munchie Monkeys and attempted to study for a couple of hrs. Note the key word attempted. Oh well, Sam, this reminds me of the hcjc days where we would try to study but never ever really succeeded. Despite our past history, I still blame today's failure on the basis that we had too much to tok about after not meeting up for so long. (oh well, im trying to push aside the issues of slackness, lack of focus here) (And how do u ever manage to study at that place when u noe everyone?????? lol) [on a sidenote, yes, the feeling is mutual and u r one of the closest frens i will ever have as well :) ] (P.S. Therefore i dun c U in dec during lidome, i will murder u:P)
Great to c u so happy and i hope u get some "exercise" done tonight. *ahems*

Right now, im torn. I feel like going to bed but yet i want to watch Tv. However, I know i should be studying. This is crap. Sigh. There r just too mani things to do in life:P

Oh well, whatever choice i make, i need to make it fast and stop staring at this blogging screen:P
Bah wigan is down 2-3 to Arsenal after 63 mins.

Oh well, whatever divine being out there, u need to put in more divine intervention to get me to study instead of just spoiling my phone, my area reception and my sim card. sigh.

Off now as the bed beckons to me. Bet u all knew this was coming din u? Ciao~

This is regrettable indeed.

2005-11-18T08:45:00.000-08:00

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, ur resident devil a.k.a mr longjinisevil here.. has finallie decided to get a blog~!~! Its been done in a moment of folly and chances are... knowing how lazy and bz i am... that it will fall into a state of disrepair soon due to the lack of posts. However, till then, we will have many evil bitching days to go~! Let us enjoy the err.. good times.. while they last!
A highly eventful day indeed.. Went to watch harry potter at PS after finishing the dumb sls exam. It was greatly disappointing and I really have to say this.. what a waste of my time and money. Dumbledore is supposed to be dignified... not fearful or gan chiong... kauz.. many other complaints as well.. but really cant be bothered to go into them. All I have to say is if u r a true fan of Harry Potter... (not like Rich who doesnt even noe Hagrid's name amd claims that he is a true fan *smirks*), brace urself.
Sigh, i dunnoe if this applies to everyone but whenever i try to study for the exams these day, various thoughts flash thru my mind, distracting me from the task at hand. These r tough times indeed.. times when i really envy many people out there who r disciplined, motivated and focused enough to keep on studying.
Perhaps the only way i can really get my mind down to studying is to change my focus on life completely. To be more focused, more serious and to totally put 100 percent into every single thing. But.. im lazy or im weak... whichever way u choose to view it, it juz doesnt strike me as the way i wanna live my life. Wats the pt of outdoing others? Wats the pt of seeking glory and affirmation? I agree that affirmation is positive and good for people but is it reallie needeD?
Hell, u can thrash me in anithing for all i care... unless u piss me off. I dun deny that with one single exception, I 've never tried my best.
The point is where does all this focus take us? Is it the end result that satisfies us? Or is the process much more important? Does the end result define who u r? If u were to judge people by their end results, oh well i reserve judgment on that issue. Maybe, Im just making excuses for myself though, trying to justify my under productivity and my ineffectiveness.
If u reallie want something, do u go all out for it? Or do u stick to the argument of what is urs will definitely be urs? Sigh.. okies.. all these is utter tosh. I have no idea what im blogging manz.. indeed im alreadie losing motivation to blog:P
To end off though, a quote i heard somewhere... everybody deserves a 2nd chance but not necessarily everyone will get it. My thought: If there is no tomorrow for me, that makes me a dangerous person indeed :PP
If u have read all the way until the end of this post, I thank u sincerely from the bottom of my heart for being one of the following : 1.) a patient fren who is trying to make sense of my ramblings, 2.) juz a very kaypoh person, 3.) juz a very bored person. However, at the risk of defaming myself, I would advise u to seek medical attention immediately as u r either suffering from a serious psychiatric condition or are probably about to suffer one due to nervous shock. :P
Till the next post if u r still mentally sound~!

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